Day 30 – I have intentionally saved this post until last, quite
frankly because I knew it would be the hardest one to write. As a parent you cannot help but wonder about
the future when you bring a child into this world. Who will they be? Will they be happy? Will they live a good life? Will they find
love? I have all these same wonderings
plus about a million more. Having a
child with autism means there are just as many unknowns but other potential
concerns the majority of parents don’t have to contemplate. These worries are even further compounded by
the fact that we are older parents. Will
she ever be able to live independently? Will she be able to tell the good
people from the bad? What will happen to
her when something happens to us? I have faith folks, a whole mountain of it
BUT I have to think about the future for her, for all of us. I will also admit that there have been times
where I felt afraid. Since her diagnosis
about every six months this fear has created an oppressive ball of anxiety in
my gut that had to be talked through and out with dear friends. I have shed a
river of tears. Our Big Girl turned 21 this past Friday. I am so proud of the young woman she has
become. She is smart and talented and
kind – she has the biggest heart, most especially for her baby Sissy. Her desire has long been to study in hopes of
helping children like her sister – she remains on that path in college
today. She has dealt with roadblocks and
challenges but has persevered. Love.
Patience. Skill. Determination. She has everything inside her that she will
need to be able to take Baby Girl by the hand if fate requires that we let
go. I am always so stuck watching them from
behind, grateful in knowing that no matter what may happen they will be fine
facing a future together.
#30facesofautism
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